When I woke up this morning, I smiled as I thought about the possibilities of the year ahead. If you’ve read my blog this year, you know I have been on a hiatus since September, when I suffered a herniated disc in my lumbar spine. After 6 weeks of treatment and worsening symptoms I decided to go ahead with surgery. I had surgery on October 26, 2012 and so far it was the best decision I could have made (aside from the insurance fiasco I am entrenched in). My symptoms were relieved immediately and the healing has been pretty painless. Aside from the fact that I haven’t worked out since September 12, I am feeling good, a little squishy, but good and the scale hasn’t really moved significantly, so I look forward to quickly regaining my momentum.
Spiritually this was a WEIRD time in my life, my heart was wrecked, I was gaining muscle, my body was getting smaller, I was getting stronger and Crossfit was really becoming the central focus of my life. I had decided to get my Level 1 certification, decided to focus my whole life on becoming a trainer, writing recipes, and embracing fitness as a full lifestyle, and then: it was all wiped away (at least temporarily.) In my faith as a follower of Christ and former (almost) Jew, I knew intuitively that this was God’s very direct method of reminding me that HE is the central focus of my life and if I want change then I better keep my priorities straight. I have a tendency to get so wrapped up in things that I shift my eyes away from God and start to idolize the thing. I don’t do it intentionally, but I am young in my faith and I am easily distracted. This behavior eventually causes me to burnout, lose focus and ultimately not reach my goals, because I am relying on my own nature to complete tasks. If I remain prayerful, focused in the word and if I BELIEVE in God’s plan for my life, everything works together. I believe that God wants what my heart wants, and I believe that my heart wants to live a life for God.
Not a moment passed in the last 3 months where I felt abandoned by the Lord, he truly provided for me. Now in this heightened time of uncertainty, I feel free to start over, only this time with God at the center of everything. It was a truly brilliant time, even though I was unsure of what would happen next. I started a small business during the holidays, where I made aprons and sold them, this afforded me enough income to spend the month of December in Texas with my sister, my nieces and my nephew. It has been an incredible month, and I have struggled with the decision to leave, but God has put it in my heart to return to Kansas and move forward with my plans to help people transform through fitness.
I am looking forward to 2013. It feels like anything is possible. I have a fresh start, a blank slate and I literally could not be more excited! Moreover I am overjoyed to start exercising again! I have missed the box more than anything else during this phase of waiting.
My goals for January 2013:
1. Return to Crossfit
2. Write Everyday
3. Find a new job in the fitness industry!
4. PRAY and read the bible everyday
5. Open my Etsy Store and continue creating
6. Love without fear
7. BELIEVE that everything is possible
What are your goals for the new year?